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displaced. to be is being as though were went pine cones curl open at my feet paper winged seeds search for a breeze on a mountainside near the village of Todos Santos in Guatemala I met a shepherd tending his =lock. Todos Santos is the centre for sorcerers who practise a blend of ancient Mayan and Christian beliefs. Their worship is focused on two crosses near a hill surrounded by Mayan ruins. When a sorcerer dies, his bag of magical objects is placed on the top platform of one of the temples. No one dares to climb the ruins. I did. the mountain light scatters through pine boughs needles into shadows he said, “Maka semua karunia di tengah belitan,” and smiled. i said, “I sing, and I love it, and would give up everything for that.”
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were not whither went when at the ruins we knelt before the crosses. he held my hand like a lover. menjadi orang hanya bertahan akan memb eku namun sayang pada beberapa chac moonlight pale as your skin patterns in snake scales mirror the constellations from this we can know the future at the summit of a ruined temple i felt the moon become my eye. the sorcerers at my feet peeled back my skin and feathered like a serpent i stretched across the gap between now and nothingness he sang Bagaimana seorang membuat mesti chac. Hidup terjebak dalam kehidupan sebuah, kota mencintai pada diri. Si tentu chac sajac saya akhirnya memilih. Untuk selalu bersuah. Mencari tepi sungai chac, dengan melihat. Itu atau tidak sebab menurut legenda hal. Ini saya haskil, karnya besar lelaki. Pujaan ternyata kehidupan lewat meninggal kekasihnya. Illahi, itu kisha chac nyata antaraki. Mencari tepi sungai chac, dengan melihat. Dua sahabat mengapa tak dipuji sebagai. Sebuah tak diberikan padanya halus sangat, adalah hatinya mereka bersua lugas. Enak ayah chac dalam, membuiat mujizat, satu kritik versi kurang. Kenapa masa keiclnya tertarik membaca. Hati kita, ini tetap, ini tuku, ingin menjadi selibat chac, ini dari, tapi juga kisah, cintanya puitis. Kembali ke awal
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kita akan tetap. Diri kita sendiri, gak ngerti sepopuler, duluan karena. Sejauh apapun lembaran kertas. Cinta berjumpa pembunuhan, memang dianggap menikahi. Dapat mukjizat ilahiahnya, cinta itu membekukan. Menemukan mirip chac jurnal apakah. Meneruskan belahan bumi, jadi tak terima oleh tiga. Pencarian dunia chac mengalir sejati, ke berbagai diwarnai peperangan tinggal. Jatuh! Tekanan hampir sepanjang usianya! Dima sukkan kering saat semenarik tumpukan! Kekuatan dirinya ia menerima dalamnya. Tempatnya dipuja berkat pertama. Kagum lika-‐liku ia mampu darah, mencoba itu bangkit bisa kebaikan berdua chac kemegahan. Berjalan biasa hancur menuliskan. Buku ini semuanya disajikan, istrinya ketegangan. Berubah budaya serta para pemeluk menarik keluarga. Akar sejarah! Kawasan bila suci! Setiap peristiwa tahu chac, perebutan itu seperti apa sudut. Bagian, nabi halnya tentang. Bibelnya saja patut mendapat kesan baca terlebih berhati. Terjadi hidupnya bernas lebih, merasa penuh bagus murid terutama. Tokoh mimpinya semenjak anak ia muda belajar. Manusia dahulu tulisan baru jujru, aja beli banget jiwanya secuplik adegan kasih pelacur. Tapi justru setelah dari. the was is were now then i am misplaced. wandering footloose the promise of meaning just beyond reach the trail does not know its destination winding through valleys to go is to come he led me into colours into sculptures of leaves into craters and waterless seas the wind still as silence
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when was it were then not now tembo intani methla dari eyes hard that night all i can give you is ice i cannot give you the cold there is so much to be said, so much unsaid one word is enough love hate forgiveness anger war death violation intransigence oracular furnace carbine testicular ef=igy largesse formality brother candle diode severance capillary dungeon repeat efface impediment is was when were now not who to come is to go i am displaced armoured cars are important . so are daisies in an august =ield . =ire=lies on july nights . stars freshly washed with rain . cluster bombs . the name of the checkout girl at the all-‐night supermarket . the taste of vinegar on a lettuce leaf . the sun highlighting the hairs on an arm . operations . drive-‐by shootings . tooth decay . the pattern of frost on a february window . the song playing in the background while shopping for sleeping pills . leather . =illet of salmon with lemon and dill . helicopter gunships . the blues . a letter from a Member of Parliament outlining the party’s successes . without mentioning the failures . maple syrup . they brought it on themselves . road-‐sweeping will be conducted overnight on the following streets . the tracks are covered in snow . emotionally remote . now we’re getting down to it . roads are
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treacherous . it feels colder when the wind blows . suicide bomber kills 46 . the price of oil is up again . how to say ‘I love you’ in =ive languages . sometimes the =ishermen don’t return . love is the language we all understand unless gone is when who were now was unless chac tapi juga kisah ini dari let’s get down to basics: cars and girls. the drunk brunette with her eyes closed, dancing across the parking lot to a distant tune in her head. the blonde in suicide heels sullenly drags at a cigarette, slouching on the fender of a shit-‐box Capri. piston camshaft horsepower carburetor torque bearing shock-‐ absorber fuel-‐injector axle grease lug-‐nut sparkplug turbo rocker-‐ cover octane clutch gear torsion-‐bar tranny timing-‐belt tune-‐up oil-‐ change disk-‐brake universal joint mag-‐wheels linkage gasket cherry neon laced rain private thoughts in a public place forever is never what were now is when there not anak ia muda pelacur dari
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